Most of last week had a very taut, higt emotional feel to it. I felt like bursting out in tears a couple of times, just because of the tossey turvey way things were going. There seemed to be days of indecision and indeterminacy. There seemed to be moments when I wasn’t sure if I was stepping off a cliff or a curb. I’m exhausted.

My friend Paul has probably been much the same. He got sick and has been talking about taking a vacation. I told him he needs to go to the day spa for a sauna, massage and whatever other treatments they give. He needs it. Last week we had a huge crisis that is still unresolved.

I have a meeting with the dept. head on Monday about last spring’s student evaluations of me. I haven’t bothered to look at them. I had one student that caused me some trouble which I already have discussed with the dept. head.

I was feeling under some pressure in the spring to not be homeless any longer when Paul started planning to move to Miami. I’m now paying twice what I was last paying for rent. If I was not working with a one yr. fulltime contract I would be homeless (maybe). I went homeless for over a year trying to pay off some bills and save a few dollars. I managed, with Paul’s help but, now I’m on my own and working double duty to stay afloat.